I really think its more about what you do which will determine where you will go. I have been thinking a lot about this. I am the kind of person who is always pressed for time even if I am sitting jobless at home. There are so many things to do at home, so much of cleaning, drawing, reading, watching TV.
I sometimes wonder, not wonder anymore, but know that I am in a way whiling away my time, not doing what I really should be doing- Researching more seriously about documentaries, going into the field and researching, talking to people, and writing down my ideas, developing screenplays based on them.
Its very tough to get out of your habits and not follow the same old pattern, as anyone who has tried dieting, trying to exercise more regularly would know. I make some resolutions every week and either forget about them or quit trying to complete them. It’s more of the former.
What I have come to understand is that what really matters is whether you have spent even a little bit of time, a teeny weeny bit of time doing what you had decided to do in the day. What matters is how you have spent those 10-15 minutes. The cumulative effect of what you did in this time affects a lot on the work done.
It will be very difficult, rather it is difficult to immediately get out of your pattern and do something religiously with complete focus. But spending 10-15 minutes on your goal is what really makes a difference. It’s a sure start to being more focused.
As for me, I had completely forgotten that in this break of a month that I am taking, I had to go in the field and talk to people about the research subject that I had in mind. Rather, it just my habit to spend atleast 1-2 hours everyday on gmail and facebook , looking for interesting updates, sharing them, publicizing about Green Bappa in the crucial months of August-September. I have tried hard to get out of this pattern now that the Ganesha festival is almost over and I don’t have to spend that kind of time/efforts on facebook anymore.
I am giving some time everyday to doing really constructive things that further my interests, career and my efforts at changing myself are becoming successful. The feeling you get after accomplishing something really worthwhile is beautiful to say the least! Like, writing this blog post which I had struggled to get myself to do since the last month!