When attending ISP session, I had come across this wonderful, simple yet clear definition of spirituality, so wanted to share it with you guys...
Ritualistic is performing rituals, praying to idols, chanting mantras, listening to discourses.
Materialistic is being happy for a reason when the cause is taken away or the taste fades away, it kinds of goes down or vanishes (happiness)
Spiritualistic is about being happy for no reason.
So, a block kind of fits in the missing puzzle solving about what I am actually looking for, the questions and answers that I keep asking myself and getting in my deep meditation phases, which have dwindled by the way. :( but then I have just myself to blame and nothing else.