Hello people!! Here I am after another long break and that too right after I made tall promises to not log off this space without any prior warning. But like I had mentioned in my earlier post there was a change of scenery in the offing and I simply could not avoid it. So here I am a couple of weeks later in another metro in India where I will be staying put for a short while to come. I have been meaning to blog earlier but some major mess up with my internet connection left me frustrated, and after being deprived of the joys of the net for a whole two weeks, I matched myself to a shop here and got myself a usb internet connection. It is not what I had in mind but, something's better than nothing I guess. So here I am, a day after that, sitting and tapping away at my laptop and hoping there are at least a handful of readers left who will grace my blog with their presence. Not that I have a huge base of readers hanging on to every word I say but the few I have are extremely dear to my heart. Ok, blatant attempt at wining back those of you who were thinking of giving up on me there. :P Anyways here I am, back on this space and this time around I mean to stick around for a while at least.
I always get stuck in a rut when I stay away from this space for long. I keep thinking about stuff to blog and when I am all set up and plonk myself down in front of my laptop, my mind goes blank. I don't quite classify it as writer's block. Its more like selective amnesia. You have something in your head for so long and then suddenly, when you need it, its gone. Anyways since I classify myself as queen of inane ramblings, I shall not disappoint those of you who are happy to see me.
Those among you who read this space frequently will know for a fact that I keep this space as happy as I possibly can. This is my little slice of paradise where I come to recollect happy thoughts and relive old memories. True, one must experience the bitter with the sweet and that is what makes one whole- I agree. So, I have also mentioned in brief about some of the bad stuff that has happened to me and S in the years we have been together. In the past few months, things had gotten to a head and it was time for us to take some tough decisions. And as a result of almost all the avenues we explored terminating in dead ends, here I am, miles away from S trying to make sense of the years that have gone by and of what fate has in store for me in future. A handful of people in my life will know exactly what I am talking about here. This was not an easy decision to make. It was pretty much the most difficult, heart- wrenching thing that I have done in my life so far. This has been the result of much deliberation and thought. There have been people who questioned our decision, people who were shocked we could even contemplate such a thing as deciding to stay apart. But me and S decided that this being our lives, ours should be the only decision that matters. We listened to what everyone had to say, explained our decision to the people who mattered, where extremely thankful and felt blessed to have the few who completely understood in our lives and off I came, leaving him behind. This is not the scenario I pictured or how I expected my life to be but this is the best that can happen in our current situation and this is what we will do. :)
I have a list of the things I want to do in the short while that I am here (I am hoping it will be a short while anyways) and I hope I am able accomplish all that. If 26 years of life have taught me anything it is that hope is the one thing that fuels life and if you want to get things done, you keep hoping and keep fighting. Fighting does not come that easy to me- me being extremely non- confrontational and lazy to boot. Heh.. But I am gonna try and hopefully I will come out with flying colors! :) So pray for me guys - pray that I have the courage to stick to my decision, that I have the determination to see my plan through to success, that God may grant me the strength to not give up.. :) Here's hoping. And here's to me being back on the blog!! Yaay!! :D