So here am..
Exams are nearly over...oh cmon there's just two left nobody gives a shit. All I can say about them is that they have been interesting...(well maybe..uh). Last Hindi paper....Good Riddance! No more Samas Sandhi and vachya kicking my ass...! Woho!
Last SST paper...never really had any qualms with that subject but well...It feels good getting rid of shit doesn't it.
Speaking of Shit. I don't know why my ideas have a way of crumbling around me....seriously not kidding. The worst part is I never get to know that they suck or are brilliant....I mean negligible feedback..that what bugs me.
Let's do a list: (Fine I love Lists...you gotta problem with that?)
1) Take this blog for instance...I started this on let me check in October 2010..first post on the 12th at 1.47 AM.
So let's see..the blog turns 18 months on 12th March..and let's see the milestones...oh yeah wait shit nil!
I mean a year and a half and I have 20 followers..and about 4220 views (at present)? seriously naked sadhus in banaras do better....!
The Most comments I have gotten on a post is 4 I guess...and maximum likes lingers around at 14-ish
2)The blog facebook page
: Started sometime in April last year...will also be turning a year old next month and what have we got? 25 people like this and 1 talking about this....common I am sure OOMPA Loompas Drinking Beer would get more likes than yours truly.!
3) My Photography page
...let's its about 4 months old. And what have we so far...48 likes...Oh my oh my!
Add to that list...The Passive Observer FaceMash Contest..oh yeah that got nothing at all. Plus don't forget my bid to complete a hundred posts before Jan 1 2012...we're still at 90 and uh its March 2012!
I guess the only reason my blog shows some page views or readers is because I ceremoniously tag all my close friends (atleast that's what I think of 'em) on facebook. Maybe they give it an obligatory glance, maybe they even read it..no way to get in their heads.
I mean I don't mind people telling me that I suck..I mind them saying nothing at all.
And a while back this wouldn't have bothered me...but recently I think there's little worth left in carrying on.
Maybe its the exam stress ( yeah rite...stress? You write a 3 hour paper in max an hour 23 minutes..well except maths..well who doesn't?..*ahem*uh?!)
Maybe I just have woken up from a long sleep of nonchalance and complacency, of being oblivious, of "not giving a shit"..
or maybe its the __________ speaking (wait I haven't done any drugs or anything)..so this doesn't apply.
Anyhoo..I have decided to do something about it In the next month I probably will (probably since all my ideas turn to shit anyway) end up offing myself...(woah let's not get ahead ourself)..Well I mean killing my virtual presence which includes suspending my e-mail, facebook, blog, youtube account, photography page, uh let's see..bioware social account steam account...uhm..ubisoft account..(wait not all this cause then I won't able to play my games)...ign account..yup that goes for sure...and miscellaneous.
This is perhaps my swan song...I guess..thanks to all the loyal readers I guess and the silent voyeurs too( just so that you know this is partly your fault)...U probably won't see me here again.
--TPO Amogh Sood
signing off (perhaps for the last time)