Year 2012 for Me
Date: 1/15/2012 5:58:50 PM
A new year brings a lot of joy, big expectations, resolutions, and high hopes along with it. Also, how the New Year start depends a lot on how one ends the previous year, irrespective of how the complete year had panned out. For me this year 2012, will always be a little sad for many aspects. And amazingly it has nothing to do with my 2011.
2011, was a mixed bag for me had some good moments and some bad as well. Though my professional career was at bay, my personal life had some big moments, a few very good, and a couple of them bad as well. Though I must admit that the good moments were a little to many, to write out of which a few of them where: I completed my MS, and in the process also earned an Erdős Number, made some great friends at office in Achyut, Sandip, Moiz, Firoz, and Sandeep, joined an executive MBA course and have been performing well in it, and many more. The sad part were probably the only accidents that happened to me, as one of them was a major one and pretty serious (in fact this too can fit into the happy zone as there were only one accident as I call it, which a pretty good figure as compared to the previous years). The other only sad story can be that my good friendship with Umesh has probably been going through a few turbulant times.
The entry into 2012 hasn’t really been good as I fell critically ill, but this is not what the major setback is for me. The biggest problem will be that I would turn 25 this year in May, probably this a great figure and people look up for it, but that not in my case. This number is what I have been dreading for past many years, as 25 means that I am officially no longer dependent on my father and with that I will have to do away with all my army background benefits that I have been enjoying for more than 24 years. Probably this is the most dreaded number amongst the army kids, and unfortunately for me it has to come this year. Now no more army canteen, no more airline/train discounts, no more free entry into army clubs and sport centres, and probably no more army hospital treatment (and I am really scared of this). I am already getting scared with just the thought of losing all of these privileges, and turning completely into what we used to “a civilian”.
2011 ended also on a good note, with me being able to make patch up with my love (well we have been breaking up and patching up for a long time now) which is very good, but that scares me now even more as with my parents aware and me touching 25, there will surely be a pressure to take the relationship to the next level, something I am not really ready for. Also close friends getting hooked up already and quite a few in the line this year add the peer pressure as well. What scares me to a further level is that with now my brother moving out of town midyear for his job opportunities and my parents moving out to a new location as a part of my dad’s transfer means that I will be all alone in the city, and this is a reason big enough for my parents and grandmothers to get me hooked. Hopefully, I will be able to push all these decisions onto 2013, making me free from at least one big pressure. Or else handling both tags, the adoption of the “Civilian” tag and the loss of “Bachelors” tag, will become very difficult for me.
Apart from these two probable “dreadful” events life looks pretty comfortable in the coming year, unless the first two weeks of the year repeat itself again and again. Though the start has not really been good so far. Also this year is termed as year when the world will end, I am not sure of the world, but surely I came close to see my life end in the past two weeks. Hopefully this year will bring very few accidents and lot of success. I was also able to keep up to most of my resolutions taken last year, hopefully I will able to keep that trend up this year as well.