April 22, 2013

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 4/22/2013 5:57:00 PM

'We are nothing but statistics, infinitesimal points tending to zero on a self adjusting bell curve.'

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To be a romantic

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 3/17/2013 12:41:00 PM

'I am a hopeless romantic. And sometimes, that's not a good thing. Being a romantic is like having a disease. It involves living in a world of unrealistically high expectations after watching a movie or reading a book and being thoroughly, unsettlingly disappointed with the mundane present. It means smiling to yourself when you see a dog sleeping in the sun and being at the receiving end of weird looks from people who happen to see that. It means walking into a cafe, ordering somethi(...)'

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March 13, 2013

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 3/13/2013 2:08:00 PM

'I look around and I see so much inconsistency. People are inconsistent. They are not what they were a few minutes ago. They are not what they think they are or should be. Their beliefs are not rooted in anything. Another thing that people are, is indecisive. They delay decisions until the damage is done. They live in this spiral shaped hollow of denial. Most of them. Including me. Perhaps it's because of the way we are brought up. So many memories I have are broken. They were lost a(...)'

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Fetish

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 3/2/2013 8:09:00 PM

'There was a phase not so long away when you could very easily associate the adjective 'irresponsible' with me. I had turned into a compulsive shopaholic, perhaps to foolishly fill some sort of sudden void in my life. My financial as well as emotional balance were hitting rock bottom. I coveted all things unknown, I took what I had for granted, I hurt myself and someone else, and I wasted a precious amount of time. I have emerged out of that though, and like all lapses, it taught me (...)'

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The wish of a song

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 2/19/2013 8:00:00 PM

'I want to create a song. A song so tenderly and innocently happy that it evokes an untraceable melancholy in your soul. And I want to hold a guitar and sing it with a smile on my face, as if it doesn't kill me. As if now is all we have. As if there is nothing loftier than this moment, not even the weight of the past. I want the tune to be fast, not too fast to make you pant for breath, neither slow enough to let you rest on any one image that any note evokes. I want it to be a colla(...)'

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Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 2/1/2013 5:42:00 AM

'Would you let me be your pillowIf I promised never to betrayEvery drop that ever wet meEvery dream you let slip away'

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There will be days...

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 1/27/2013 5:43:00 AM

'There will be days when both yes and no will be equally wrong. When what you choose affects not just you but a lot more. On days like that, breathe. Remember the little girl who wrote letters to God. She is still in there somewhere. Find her. Let her tell you who you are and who you ought to be. She knows. There will be days when the injustice around you will numb you down and make you feel vulnerable and powerless. When all you'd want to do is cry out loud. Do. Allow the gr(...)'

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Rant

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 1/21/2013 3:26:00 PM

'I do not look at the world the same way after 1984. The book has awakened in me something basic but something that I have been conditioned to ridicule and suppress. I had a short talk with X yesterday, and we talked very interesting marketing. And he mentioned, in passing, the differences between the nature of the markets in India and China. Nothing new. Perhaps it was the way he said it, the terms he used. We all know India is a difficult market, and that we tend to prefer a c(...)'

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Love

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 1/8/2013 7:32:00 AM

'Love. In every inch of my body, in every mole of the microcosm I nurture within my soul, in every ounce of light and darkness and all other manifestations of present and absent energy that I am part of. In the rhythm of my heartbeat, and in that of yours, in the one giant heartbeat that we are.'

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01/ 01/ 2013

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 1/1/2013 6:26:00 PM

'You are the one person I'd allow into an inglorious moment. Keep the key to the window from where I am naked and stripped of all pride and strength. Keep it safe. Some day, I'd need you to climb in and wrap me, not in passion or love, but in acceptance. I'd expose all my wounds and ask, not for medicine, but a relieving touch. Give me that. Like today. Be who you were today. Be that pillar, that illogical pillar that stands right there no matter how rough-edged the leaning object is(...)'

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01/01/2013

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 1/1/2013 7:11:00 AM

'Resolutions:- Sustain.- Love more. More unconditionally. Be more giving. MUCH less judgemental.- Manage time. More than time, attention. Manage attention. Be where you are, in what you are supposed to do.- More early mornings. More yoga. More walks. More music. More pens and paper. Much less computer. More camera.- No more books. Finish the pile first.- Be more assertive, where needed. And don't. Where not needed.- Care about the world. But don't be paranoid. Don't let it seep into (...)'

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Remember me?

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 12/31/2012 1:46:00 PM

'Long long ago, when leisure was a luxury, I had given an hour to your thoughts. It was a precious hour, hard earned after a day's hard work tackling the immediate. Back then, we were hunters and gatherers. We hunted for moments of solace and gathered half-formed, ill-defined, hazy dreams. The future was not a blur; it was darkness, stark, fierce, dangerous and unknown. Back then, we were small. We were fearing. We were awed. We were worshippers. We were warriors. We were nature.&nbs(...)'

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26/ 12/ 2012

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 12/25/2012 8:45:00 PM

'4 days to go and I hit the milestone.All those experiences, memories that seem like yesterday, some of them are already 6-7 years old. You know you're getting older when your span of memory starts to become larger, and your experiences more vivid and defined.Am I who I wanted to be when I was 25? That's a tough question. Life never turns out the way you plan it, does it? In the past years, I experienced friendship, love, heartbreak, rebellion, reconciliation, doubt and then reinforc(...)'

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Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 12/21/2012 4:27:00 AM

'It's not men who rape women. It's women who rape women. Every time you wished you had a son or a grandson, every time you let your son watch you become meek and bear an insult at the hands of someone, every time you stayed silent in self pity, you raped another woman. You gave birth to the society that rapes. You are not weak or small or helpless. Be an individual before being a woman. Demand to be treated like an individual. And settle for nothing less.'

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Bengalured

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 12/14/2012 3:21:00 PM

'Something I wrote for the office magazine: :) Today, as I took a moment of break and stumbled on the intranet page, I found the topic, "Things you love about Bangalore". I knew I had to write about it. How could I not? Bangalore has been the object of my affection ever since the day I arrived here, with nothing but an offer letter in hand, a million hopes, and a heartbeat-speeding, breath-stopping excitement about the unknown. It was January, and the city was at its best; a mix(...)'

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November 21, 2012

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 11/20/2012 7:49:00 PM

'Far far awaywhere the sun does not setand the sea meets the desertto create a metaphor- sun, sand and sea- a mirage of a placeyou would wish tosunbathe at,There, on that island of oxymorons,drenched in salt waterwrite me poetryharsh, honest, cruel.Sunburn me.'

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10/15/2012

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 10/15/2012 4:56:00 PM

'You know what I love about Bangalore right now? Sweatshirts. It's the kind of weather that lets you come back home from work and slip into a pair of shorts and a sweatshirt and then crawl inside your blanket and take your laptop and type away. It's the kind of weather that lets you take late evening walks under an umbrella in the drizzle, and lets you feel mysterious. It's the kind of weather where you can buy a cake on whim and have lots of hot chocolate too. The kind that lets you(...)'

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9/25/2012

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 9/25/2012 10:41:00 AM

'How my brain works these days:Oh good you're up. It's 7. There's still time. That was an interesting dream. Let's see what happened to the fish that died.It's 9.30. Is the maid there yet? Nah! She'll ring the doorbell you installed last night.9.40: *hears dishes clanking in the kitchen*. Al let her in. Why didn't she ring the bell? It's such a cool bell. In the shower: It's warm in here. Waaaaaaaaaaaaarm...Me: Ok. let's get going. *Turns the shower off.*In the auto: It's a sunn(...)'

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The Now.

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 9/13/2012 6:37:00 PM

'For once I want to draw and I don't want it to be about symmetry or shape. I want it to be blurred and foggy and mildly reminiscent of intangible, unidentifiable memories. I want to paint, not with a brush, but with my fingers and a knife, and I want to not care about the outcome. Once, again, I wish to be a word stuck at the back of the head that becomes a whole story, and then a whole new life, a whole new existence, a whole new me. Inhale. Exhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaale. Inhale. (...)'

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Quarter Life, Almost.

Author : Tulika Verma      Blog : Indulgence      Date : 9/12/2012 6:52:00 AM

'There comes a point in your life, sometime around when you are about to hit 25, that you start to evaluate all the choices you have ever made. You start analysing why you did what you did and how much you allowed yourself to be influenced by factors that should have just been, well, dealt with differently. This phase is a very selfish phase. You suddenly become more aware of yourself and more and more anxious to learn and grow as a person. You weigh every aspect of your life precise(...)'

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