fuckall.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 1/29/2013 7:03:00 AM

'I'm back.Thank god.I am so angry right now and I need an outlet. I need an outlet to let everything out, and this is it.I hate how things changed so quickly that I can't even trace it. I hate the person I've become now. I hate how dependent I am on people, I hate how materialistic I've become. I hate how I can't get anything done by myself and the value I have in this world is equal to that of a vegetable. Yes, I just called myself a vegetable. I hate how I don't matter when I shoul(...)'

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What a lovely face.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 10/18/2012 3:09:00 PM

'Look, that's us. So good we look from behind ;)Begging for second chances, really.Cause the first one? Completely fucked up, it was.Please let there be another time when it's just you and me. I'm sure we'll be perfect then.No one's made me feel like the way you do, in the longest time. Ugh.'

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Baby, you're a perfect 10.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 10/8/2012 12:47:00 PM

'CALCUTTA IS FUNNNNNNNNNNNN :D :DCannot believe I am saying this.It's not Delhi, and obviously it will never be, but I can learn to love this city, really. The food is nice and cheap. The people are nice and sweet. The weather sucks BALLS. The guys are smart. The shopping sucks, but meh.  My friends are awesome. The clubs here are AWESOME. Free alcohol on most days for women [ hallelujah!], transportation is cheap, fruits are nice. :DOh and bengali slangs are so much f(...)'

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Koka noodles.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 10/2/2012 1:17:00 PM

'I have decided to not write about you till I meet you again.Shit.This is going to be difficult.Anyway.College is nice.Calcutta is nice.I don't miss Delhi much. What I miss is the past, because the past was beautiful. Everything about it made sense, in some odd way or the other. The present however, is a bunch of logical things that ironically, when put together, don't make much sense at all. Skype is a fucking blessing. On bad days, all I need is a good Skype session with someo(...)'

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The Aftermath.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 9/24/2012 4:14:00 AM

'I haven't met you in 3 and a half months. Chances are, I'm never going to see you again. I don't know why I got myself involved in this whole mess. I don't know. Everything destructive in my life was somehow related to you. Whether it be the continuous smoking, the lackadaisical attitude, the complacency I went on with with regards to my "future", the promiscuity or the fact that at one point, I was willing to throw all of it, every thing that my life ever stood for, for y(...)'

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Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 9/23/2012 10:33:00 AM

'Too much is changing.Too fast.Cannot keep up.You left today. And that last conversation when you were boarding your plane to that stupid country is something I will remember till I have another conversation with you. I'm going to miss you, like I have been for the last 4 months. Maybe I'll miss you more, now that you're further away in terms of distance.I don't know if this is the end, or a break or whatever, but I know that I got through class 10, 11 and 12 because you were by my s(...)'

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kitni baatein yaad aate hai

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 9/19/2012 1:33:00 PM

'I want my fucking life back.I want stoner everyday with Anmol.Ramen noodles with rudraksh.blueberry cheesecake with Suhina.i want to bitch with kaainaat and obsess over boobsfilter coffee with aditiendless walks with kurkure, pepsi and a pack of cigarettes with ujjwal. along with the occasional plate of momos.raiding tiffins with shreed5 hour phone conversations with madhavand then a joint or two with madhav. maybe sometimes a bong. every fucking evening.jogging trips every now and (...)'

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For this is how I say good bye.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 9/13/2012 6:21:00 AM

'So put me on a plane and fly me to anywhere...with you.I had to find you, tell you I need you. Tell you I set you apart.Take my hand, take my whole life too. For I can't help falling in love with you.Let's get rich and build our house on the mountains, making everybody look like ants. From way up there, you and I, you and I.I cant't make you love me, if you don't. You can't make your heart feel something it won't.You and me, what a feeling.In a bullet proof vest, with the windows al(...)'

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Cray craaayy

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 9/6/2012 11:02:00 AM

'I will sleep all day and pass all my time that way.And I shall let people like Ujjwal and Suhina take care of the rest :*A huge huuuuuge shout out to people in Delhi - You do not know how much I miss you, all of you. Even the people I constantly fought with. I miss every single detail.And to another person who has been the reason behind my survival especially over the last 2 years, just come and see me. FAST FAST. I can only go on for so long without you. And I this whole " going aw(...)'

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HAPPY NOW?

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 8/30/2012 6:59:00 AM

'This one boy has been pestering me for a while now to write something about him. And after consistently saying no all this while, I have decided to give in. Samraat Basu. When it comes to you, where do I begin? Do I begin with how I knew I wanted to marry you the third time I spoke to you? Or do I begin with when we first met and how I felt so fucking protected in your arms, staring into what was in front of us, from that wide window in the smoking room of Hard Rock?I know(...)'

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Space bounded. Yes.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 8/21/2012 4:11:00 PM

'I've never written a blog post about you. Never. I have written about every other mildly significant thing, but I have never cared to mention you or mention the effect you've had on me, which is surprising.So anyway, I'm sitting in my hostel room, thinking about what we would be doing together had I lived in Delhi and I am very tempted to put down publicly things that I've wanted to say to you for a while now.Space Bound happens to be our song, right? Every line about that song is u(...)'

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Hey, my lover.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 8/4/2012 12:09:00 PM

'You know the moment when it all comes crashing down? When you realize that you don't have it figured out, contrary to your belief for so long, the moment you just want things to get easier, because you don't think you can deal if they get any more difficult?Yeaaah that.Okay maybe I'm dramatizing things a little, but the truth is - I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I'm finally studying something I've wanted to study for the longest time, and I don't love it. It's horrible(...)'

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Laaaaaaame.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 7/25/2012 3:42:00 PM

'When did it turn into a war? Since when did it become about one of us winning? I was under the impression that love was enough, and that if we loved each other, we could tackle everything that would eventually be thrown at us. But somewhere along the rather destructive road we both decided to take, obliviously, our pride came in. The feeling of inter dependence still existed, but it wasn't transparent like it used to be. Suddenly, it became a battle and the both of us were too stubb(...)'

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boobs.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 7/22/2012 10:34:00 AM

'College.An insane amount of fuckery.No cigarettes, no sex.This is the life of a fucking monk.God, I miss home.'

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Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 7/1/2012 3:50:00 PM

'College.Bye Delhi.Bye Home.Bye Drama.Bye Sex. - No physical intimacy for the next 5 years. FUN. Bye free hash.Bye Stoner.OH MY GOD STONER. How much I'm going to miss that place.Bye people I love.Bye People I called Family.Bye my favorite cigarette shop.Bye Shawarmas.Hello, Orissaaaaaa.Hello, Indian Style bathroomsHello, good weed :) Hello, Law :DCollege, you better not be a bitch.'

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Superman.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 6/21/2012 7:58:00 AM

'It took a fuck lot of strength and a fuck lot of courage to deal with the happenings of this year. There were moments when giving up would've been the easier and wiser option, but I didn't. Hoping that something better will come along someday, and that there will always be a tomorrow. It wasn't easy, not even close. It was one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do.After the storm passed, I thought - Okay, maybe the good days are here. And I was finally beginning(...)'

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Love? Love.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 6/13/2012 8:34:00 AM

'Guess who got tattooed? I DID.And I didn't cry at all or scream AT ALL. I'd like to take a bow, thank you. *Bows*Here are the pictures -My tattoo artist, Shyamali was amazing. She's tattooed me before, so I trusted her a lot more than I'd trust some random tattoo artist. And she kept talking to me through out to keep me distracted. She is also beautiful, so that was distraction enough.It hurt like a bitch, though. I'm not going to lie. It took about 50 mins to do. And the whole(...)'

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Serendipity.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 6/8/2012 6:24:00 AM

'Happenings of May and June.1. Board results came out. I got an 81 in Pol Science, I DO NOT know how that happened since I didn't think I'd even attempted 80 marks. Economics anal fucked me. But whatevz.2. CLAT results came out. Fucked up would be an understatement.3. Ujjwal came back. For the summer :)4. Suhina turned 185.  Madhav and I happened. And surprisingly, it's not all that bad.6. I got The New iPad AND the iPhone 4S. [ BE JEALOUS BITCHES]7. Varun came back for the(...)'

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Escape.

Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 5/28/2012 10:49:00 AM

'It's going to hurt, there's no denying that, is there? We're going to go through this phase of uncertainty not knowing if things are ever going to be okay. We're all going to be engulfed by a wave called trouble. Good byes will happen. And we're going to be forced to deal with it because to be honest, what other option do we have?But what a journey it has been. Full of all sorts of excitement and happiness. Yes, there were moments were we fell...probably harder than we sho(...)'

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Author : Disguise      Blog : Who? What, nails! Ooo! Squirrel! OMGGGG.      Date : 5/24/2012 3:50:00 PM

'Man, I don't like this.I don't like the fact that you're leaving. Anmol, you're someone I've seen every other day since the beginning of time. We have literally and figuratively grown up together.I don't know what I'm going to do without you to run to. I don't know what I'm going to do once it hits that you're not a walk away anymore.You're my one and only.You're the best.We aren't over. I promise.'

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