Moved. Yet again.

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 3/25/2013 4:42:28 AM

'Yet again. This is the 9th house since I left college in 2001. And that’s counting only the places I’ve lived for more than 6 months. Doesnt include the travels or places I stayed for a few months. Maybe that’s why it was this easy. Maybe that’s why I’m so detached. Maybe that’s why I’m [...]'

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The ties that bind

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 3/8/2013 4:31:54 AM

'.. and gag. Unlearning, Letting go, has been a recurring theme for me the past year. Coming to terms with some relationships that have been quite draining; and a raw nerve over the years. And I’m learning to let go. I tell myself, it takes all kinds. All kinds of people, all kinds of relationships, [...]'

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Just because I can..

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 2/8/2013 3:39:40 AM

'doesn’t mean I have to. Or should have to. Just because I can, doesnt mean I want to. I’ve always been independent. Perhaps because I’ve been on my own for a long time. But there are times even I need backup. And as much as I hate asking for help, I should. Spent close to [...]'

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Sometimes it’s ok to give up

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 1/25/2013 7:58:46 AM

'I’m an over achiever. I hate giving up. I hate acknowledging that I can’t. Anything at all. Y’day I made my way back to dance class after 2 months of health scares – one month of me nursing a continuous migraine, 10 days of a chicken pox scare for the kid, followed by 2 weeks [...]'

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And I still cant get over it

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 1/8/2013 2:35:08 AM

'The events of that fateful day in Delhi. The horror that young woman went through. Her death. The apathy and incompetence of our SYSTEM. She’s gone. But her memory stays on. A girl we never knew. There’s a dull ache. Unfathomable sadness. Despair. Anger. Fury. At the powers that be. At society. At us. At [...]'

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2012 – the permission to be

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 12/31/2012 5:59:02 PM

'2012. Over too soon. This has been the year where I focused inward, on me. Unlearning. And giving myself, the permission, to be a less-than-perfect-human. Unlearning the 30+ years of indoctrination of what it means to be a woman, what I should and should not be doing as a woman. Letting go – of the [...]'

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The right to be Human

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 12/24/2012 10:20:16 AM

'I dread picking up the papers these days. Or checking my reader feed. Or FB.There’s a knot in my stomach. Jaws clenched. In anger and fear. For the injustice of it. For being a woman. In today’s world. Reminders, that I’m just a second class citizen. As much as I try to ignore it or [...]'

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Mind over matter

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 12/7/2012 4:50:07 AM

'I derive this almost perverse pleasure from pushing myself to the limits. Of not stopping, or even slowing down, especially when I’m unwell. I hate it when I have a fever, or when the BP tanks or when the migraines come calling. I hate being reminded that I’m human, and my body is not a [...]'

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The song in your head

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 11/29/2012 4:24:34 PM

'We  tell ourselves a story. About who we are. About the people around us. Why and what they do. And what they mean. We take the basic observations. We add in our own colors. Our own interpretation. And call it the truth. Then we fret and fume. That they’ve wronged us. They’re unworthy. They made [...]'

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Letting go

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 11/27/2012 4:46:50 AM

'Letting go Of the need to be right Of the need to be understood Of the need to be loved In the way that I need Letting go Of wanting to be right Of wanting to be understood Of wanting to be loved In the way that I want Letting go Of expectations Of ‘shoulds’ and ‘supposed [...]'

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Exhaustion

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 11/26/2012 4:34:01 AM

'Bone tired. That’s what I feel right now. The arches of my feet pain. The lower back. Hurts. My eyes just want to close. I rub some oil on my fingers. They heave a sigh of relief. Even they ache. My knees. The calf muscles. You’d think I’d been trekking this weekend. But it was [...]'

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Masks

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 11/22/2012 12:03:10 PM

'[An old post from months ago. Just so that I can hit the publish button] Ever notice the masks that we wear? The ones we use for office – for subordinates, one for peers, one for the bosses. The ones we wear at home – one for the spouse, one for the kids, one with [...]'

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Clutching

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 11/20/2012 12:09:08 PM

'I find myself slipping back into the despair and the doubts. A few giddy months where I pushed myself, to explore, to find my voice, to recoup, to recover, to take stock, to breathe, to live .. over. I dont know whether to plod ahead.  Or to give up and slink back into the glum. [...]'

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Link Roundup

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 10/29/2012 5:04:18 AM

'Trying out something new. Each week, I read a bunch of interesting stuff that I feel strongly about and would like to share/talk about.  FB doesnt quite do justice to it. Gets lost in the noise. Posting them here instead. Just to share. If you like the links, hit ‘Like’ :) Child Uninterrupted : Mommy Go [...]'

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Pretty Woman

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 10/26/2012 4:32:27 AM

'I grew up with mixed feelings about ‘prettiness’ and ‘beauty’ and what it meant to be a ‘good girl’. Most of it was not nice. I’m still trying to figure out where I stand on those. Age 6-9, growing up in Trini, I stood out as ‘the Indian’ girl in school.  I had brown skin. [...]'

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Dadaji

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 10/18/2012 8:02:03 AM

'I never said good bye. I never thought you’d be gone. It’s been a year. And it still hasn’t registered for me. I saw you fade away in the last few years, and I tried to block it out. I didn’t want to face that you were aging. The twinkle in your eyes gave way [...]'

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Flight

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 10/9/2012 11:54:51 AM

'When I want to fly And have to sit still When the heart wants to soar To celebrate The sheer joy of being Realization That life just is Soaring with a cloud In the blue skies Happy to feel the sun Amazed at the shadows Loving green In all its shades A small smile On [...]'

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Extraordinary

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 10/5/2012 4:17:08 AM

'So while we’re still gushing over Jack Bauer and 24, I wonder – what or who would’ve Jack been if he’d not happened to be in CTU, just at those particular crises points? The regular middle aged guy next door?  His skill, his talent, his cool handling of each crisis – bypassed by regular everydays. [...]'

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Goa

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 10/4/2012 5:39:19 AM

'There’s just something about Goa that brings out the smiles! Lazy afternoons at Britto’s. Then more laziness and the cheesiest lasagna and the ‘cherriest’ black forest ever at Infantaria. Breathtaking scenery all around. Weather that was just awesome. Sunshine in the mornings, cloudy afternoons. Light drizzle in the evenings – giving us some spectacular orange [...]'

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In love

Author : richajn      Blog : Woman at Work      Date : 10/1/2012 5:19:41 AM

'With life. In all its colors. Aware of, and relishing, each moment. Accepting. Believing. Through each day. Life is. And that’s all there is to it. [Image from here] Filed under: Life Lessons, Musings'

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