Of becoming an arthur...

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 11/6/2012 3:39:00 PM

'How does one become an author? Is it a journey that can be charted, with fixed points to mark the way? Or is it from a string of moments that blend, one into the other....seemingly disparate at first, but all leading to a point of culmination....into something that begs to be remembered, to be captured, to be posterized?This is a question which does not truly need an answer because it is only a means to talk about something that's come about in Winkie's world. That he is now writing(...)'

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Love is...

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 10/23/2012 4:04:00 PM

'...unpredictable. Big realisation of the day.What I thought of as love, actually came with many conditions to fulfil. It came from a selfish part of me which had certain illusions and conformed that love to fit the illusion of the time and day. It sprung from a need that I had, flowing to the people who I thought could fulfil that need. I painted it with the colours that I thought brightened it and made it pretty to look at, and fragrant to breathe in. I went with the ebb and flow o(...)'

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Making it your very own...

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 10/10/2012 2:41:00 AM

'I was sitting down with Winkie yesterday on a writing assignment. There was a subject theme and a writing focused on it. And I knew right from the start what a big challenge it was going to be.One, me and writing have been friends for awhile. And I've always said about how I am writing in my head all the time. So give me a theme and I am in heaven. Which makes it that much more hard to sit down to guide Winkie along in his writing. To hold back and not jump in. To guide and not grav(...)'

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To the deep end and back...

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 10/6/2012 1:05:00 PM

'You need the fog to lift completely so you can see exactly where you have been and the clear trail that led you there. To see exactly where you are standing now, the very spot where your feet have stolidly clung to the ground and are still keeping you, giving a vantage and steadiness. And you can breathe....clear, pure gulps of air, not laden with the mist and your chest can contract and expand, breathing in survivial and out the negativity and despair and sadness and hopes past and(...)'

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Of lists and life...

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 9/27/2012 12:44:00 AM

'As I was straightening out Winkie's bed the other night, I found this tucked under his pillow. A little notepad of things to do. A list for his little tasks. Something he can look at first thing in the morning as he wakes up, and remind himself. And just like that I was awakened.The days that blur and pass dizzyingly by in the 9 to 5 auto mode, came to a grinding halt. Feelings buried deep down rise to the surface. And I feel....touched. Not in that warm, fuzzy way. But as a range o(...)'

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A choice in God?

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 9/11/2012 1:07:00 AM

'R walked in just now. One of those days when I did not pick him up from the station but he rode the bus instead. And he walked in only to get the car keys. Because he needed to drop somebody home. A stranger who was waiting at the bus-stop, for a bus that did not come and she did not have a way home. A stranger named Blessing. A girl with a beautiful smile that warmed me when I saw her. She must have been in her early twenties and her smile was so gentle and sweet. I told her how I (...)'

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His own-ness!

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 8/24/2012 2:00:00 PM

'So school started yesterday. Though it was only an hour for Kindergarten. And Thambi started Kindergarten this year. I can't say its hard to believe how time has flown. Because time has run its usual course and I have felt its passage every step of the way. But even without that added sentimentality of a boy who was a baby one day and a kid old enough to go to school the next, Kindergarten is an exciting proposition, because of our curiosity to see what he will bring to the mix(...)'

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Love learns of itself

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 7/5/2012 12:57:00 PM

'The fireworks are going off outside, every now and then, lighting up the sky in the prettiest streaks of colour. But what makes me smile, from deep down, is this amazing secret I just heard. For when you hear the true feelings of child who is best known to hold them closeted deeply inside, is it not as thrilling as a secret just revealed in all its intensity?If there is anything I have felt ever since Winkie was old enough to express himself, it is that he was always a mystery to me(...)'

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This life's breath

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 6/1/2012 12:30:00 PM

'A few years ago, I took up Many Lives Many Masters by Brian Weiss. The novelty and wonder was there for a few chapters, but beyond that I found the whole thing clinical and repetitive and never finished the book. Now I wonder at the state of mind I was in to ever have done that. For it was an amazing journey this time around, and with so much of learning. Though perhaps, there is this one thing that I am consciously taking away from it.To my understanding, we come int(...)'

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To marking the road...

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 5/27/2012 11:02:00 AM

'Since its been hard to think of what to write and to even write when the thoughts came....a few simple words to capture current state of things...Time of the year : Spring. I refuse to say summer yet.Time of day : 5:40 on a Sunday morning, as I look forward to going outside to plant my impatiens.Time of my life : Just this simple joy of creating a modest summer garden, enjoying the feel of dirt between my fingers and scraping out the dirt under my fingernails afterward.The point in (...)'

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Ode to 100!

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 2/3/2012 10:09:00 PM

'I started off 3 years ago meaning to capture the things that really made me happy. Whether they were people, moments or the scene in front of my eyes. It started off when some of the moments of my true happiness with life, rose to the surface of my thoughts and greeted me. Enough to remind me to click, just once or twice. The very act of working on the pictures, uploading them and finding the words that described my joy was a joy, in itself.Over time, this awareness has increased an(...)'

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The lessons of the lost Zoop!

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 1/12/2012 11:03:00 PM

'Some months ago, Winkie lost his only, and most cherished, 7th birthday gifted watch in school. It was a Titan Zoop, with a cool basketball logo on the sides. He loved it, and I have to say it looked sporty and smashing on his wrist. That is until he lost it. This is what roughly happened from his account of things. It was a sweaty recess, and when he came back to class, he decided to take off the watch to cool off, and laid it on his desk. It was reading time, and one of his friend(...)'

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"I am full of love."

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 1/11/2012 12:39:00 PM

'...so says a soon to be 5 year old, in answer to a question he himself asks me. And the question...Amma, do you know why I love you so much?This while being perched on my hips, in one of those moments where you can't get enough of cuddling your littlest one. The question by itself was a statement, which by itself gave me immense joy to hear. So is it any wonder that I held my breath while waiting for him to reply?Because I am full of love.Something about those choice of words is a m(...)'

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Tintin-ised!

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 1/5/2012 4:42:00 AM

'I grew up reading Tintin comics. I think my Dad owned quite a few titles and it would be kept safely locked inside his little book cabinet, alongwith a worn copy of Kane & Abel. And on many quiet afternoons, I would extract them and read them, over and over again, till I knew every single dialogue and every single twist in the plot.Interestingly enough that is one of the few books I share in common with R, who is not too much of a reader otherwise. So, when Tintin was going to h(...)'

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2012

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 1/1/2012 1:37:00 PM

'I start this post, with no real thoughts, but only a vague urge that I need to write something. Something about 2012 and being at the crossover point, demands it. So in no particular order....1. The thing I have learnt the most this year, is that it is okay to be myself. Even if all I am feeling is quiet, distanced and lost to my own world, its okay to be like that. People will eventually get used to it. Its okay to cut those ties of expectations that bind you to them, and be free o(...)'

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34...

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 12/4/2011 1:23:00 PM

'Yesterday was the day I crossed over to begin the 35th year of my life. Continuing along the lines of basic, I was not wound up for this in any particular way. Rather, I just...r.e.a.l..l.y wanted to have a quieter version of a birthday, with the least fuss. And it did work out that way.For one, one my my aunts from India called bright and early, and was the first to wish me. And since her call woke me up, I could come down to enjoy 1 full hour of almost solitude before everyone els(...)'

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Basic.

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 12/1/2011 12:18:00 PM

'Basic. That one words describes my life of the past several months. We have been on a "basic" mode. Basic meals, basic ways of filling up time, basic ways of marking a festival, basic conversations...and just a very basic quality to life. Yes, things have been busier off late, but then again, when are they not? I think I was on a major mental burnout, and did not have the inclination, leave alone the energy, to communicate, or express. Words have this dual quality to them. They can (...)'

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Praise God!

Author : Tharini      Blog : .      Date : 9/29/2011 2:50:00 PM

'Yesterday, I received a mail that had these following lines in it. And there was a simple beauty in those words which was hard to ignore and write off to the usual sentimental cliche.Happy moments, Praise GodDifficut moments, Seek GodQuiet moments, Worship GodPainful moments, Trust GodEvery moment ,Thank GodAnd at first glance and first thought,  the order of the action words for each life situation seemed about apt. But then you start digging a little deeper into yourself. And(...)'

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